So yesterday I spent most of the day with my friend Sara. She brought me home around 3 or so. She had taken me to get Travis a Valentine card, but when I got home I accidently left it in her car!!!! I was very frustrated at myself.
So I decided that I had a little time before the kids got home, so I went to Walmart... (yes, yes, I know I am not supposed to do that) anyway I got him and the kids a card and some candy, then I proceeded to leave.
After I got to the car on my little electric cart, I got off and grabbed my 2 small bags, to put them in the car to leave..... I heard this guy say something that I thought I understood, but just in case I misunderstood, I said "excuse me" he tells me "you could at least limp and make yourself look like you need to use those" I told him "sir I have a heart disease"!! to which he replied " yeah sure you do". and then walked away.
I was shaking, and I got in the car and just started to cry.. I do not know why this made me feel so bad, but it did. I know that I have every right to be using the handicap spot and the cart, but it still bothered me.
I knew at some point I would get a dirty look, or something, but when this actually happened I could not understand why he was so rude to me.
I posted what happened on Facebook , and the emotions that it brought out of some of my closest friends and family was a little scary.. I know that they were all mad at what had happened to me as was I, but I went to bed last night feeling sorry for the man that had spoken so harshly to me.
I prayed for him last night and I will continue to do so, I do not know if he was angry because he was having a bad day, and thought that I was taking advantage of this luxury...but I know that he was put in my path to hurt my feelings so that I would pray for him!!!!
I know that I would trade him his parking spot anyday to be able to walk to the store and not be completely short of breath and tired. I would also trade him his parking spot for a new and healthy heart, but that is not how this works, so for now I will just trade the hurt feelings for a sense of humility, and I will pray for him, whoever he is.
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven.
a time to be born, and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecclesiastes 3:10-11